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Fitzcarraldo

by Weird Family

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Chyp Maikoski
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Chyp Maikoski Phew, real hip hop. Agreed, not exactly In production, but in execution and obvious inspiration, yes. Been listening for years, still bueno. If you don’t know, now you do. Favorite track: Defeat-Id.
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1.
Prologue 02:09
Verse One: Late night epiphanies I feel them alive, like they breathe Deep inside my shadowy soul Turn on lights, watch it glow Film projects on my inner walls All emotion, no words at all Try to speak it, feel so weak, it Is…so… Hard to reach it This album's about life This album's about death This album's about the fight that you fight to keep breath I create to be immortal Shape life, make a portal Be a star, in orbit See far, absorb it Feelin' so incompetent Losin' all my confidence Damn, this shit in nonsense I'm gonna lose my conscience And let my demons haunt it Take my soul and pawn it Sorry, I am honest I get lost easily My ambitions teasing me Things aren't what they seem to be And what they seem is seemingly Just another dream to me Late at night they sing to me Lullaby's, but what if I… Can't say what they mean to me? Verse Two: Let the story begin A man from Michigan with ink in his pen Thinkin' again, words link with the wind Blow through my ears through the speakers again Drag the boat over Mountains and boulders Rivers and oceans Rope on my shoulders Travelin' through Babylon Villages and palaces They tell me to babble-on My hands form calluses Per-fectionist Per, my recklessness Merge with the words And I wear them like necklaces They become nooses Each one produces Mirages that lie and seduce it's Like starin' at Medusa Frozen by my dreams like starin' at halluci- Nations that I'm facing' when I'm lookin' at my future Lookin' in the mirror like nothin' ever suits ya Try to find the path, but the path is illusio- Nary and it's scary tryin' to speak like a mute the World flies by in an instant Lines form into circles in the distance
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There's a bottom to the ocean Dig deep enough, you might find the potion Live long enough, you might find the motion The rhythm and precision that underlies commotion The roots in my chest, extend to my navel Bridge to the dead, truth in the fables Truth in the mysteries told around the campfire Night's approaching, I can see the lamp's tired Flame flickerin' Tipsy with a fifth of gin Light and dark mix in him Deep in the abyss of him Trace the spine of a question mark to the answer Cough out the sickness, kill the cancer/ (Breakdown) There's a bottom to the ocean Dig deep enough, you might find the potion Live long enough, you might find the motion The rhythm and precision that underlies commotion I'm wandering, travelin' the mountain in my spine Shape, the great wall The fountain of my mind My body is a continent, full of bloody rivers Take a step onto it and drown in my liver Stardust inside me, illuminate the atoms If I shine then hide me from God like Adam Nomadic, by habit, a savage, I have this Dream that gleams in the passage of madness Passionate, life is a flash and it Moves fast, passin quick No use stashin' it Death has a hell of a memory When it sends for me, it sends for me Prepare mentally Never been a friend of me Meditate, set it straight No need to hesitate Rituals, habitual Live life as critical Determined, inner sermons Eradicate the vermon Disciplined learnin' Inner wheels churnin' A monk on the road travels inward Philosophies surge n' enter my center A day of exploration The depths of my soul, my destination The life that I am facin cuz life's a quest and I question Life's a test and I'm testin' Take the lies and undress them And fly in the right direction
3.
Babble-on 03:02
Verse One (Fragmentation): Mutterin' through gutters n' Stutterin’, thoughts utterin' Speakin but sputterin', man I Miss my brother n' Nostalgic about How it Houses Memories Stem from me Mentally Meant to be Sentimentally Sent to me My pen vents to me Born in the wrong century Midnight in Paris Picasso befriended me Not so, spirits enter me A séance Stay on The beat plays on For days on I keep writin’ Hand hurtin' Keep fightin' A man searchin' For enlightenment Ignitin' Anguish of language The pain contained in The deep, but spoke in layman's Tongue is an island, a raft in the Cayman's Ancient ash on the walls of caveman Scrolls unfurled in the halls of Asians Arranged and placed in the bass in my basement Pen is my friend The pen is my enemy Depend on the pen But the pen pretends to be A friend, potentially But the pen extends from me I'm weak, it's weak The pen depends on me Chorus: Babblin' In Babylon In Babylon I'm babblin' In Babel when The towers went Unravelin', so babble-on In this modern day Babylon Save me from this Babylon (x2) Verse Two (Clarity): Another day, another rap verse 30 years, no hits, man, that hurts Wanna commune But write abstract shit Outta tune, don't fit in with this rap shit Everything I package Looks awful in pla-stic Maybe I should quit, and that's it Alone in my room I zone to the tunes Feed my mind Ears the spoon It's critical I'm so critical Nothin' good enough In this ritual Helen Keller In a cella Want to sing like Ella Stevie, Nina Cuz that's the arena I've seen a… Lot in my lifetime Work hard, wake up the right mind To wake up the right minds To make up the right time To make my light shine And create my mic time I'll take a lifeline Just getting started Live life til' I depart it You know my heart is An artist, and marches To its beat, so give me a beat Until my hearts gives
4.
Verse one: Died at birth Learnin' living Inside the earth The forbidden Truth is Fighting is useless Secrets betrayed By loose lips Why do I do this? Ragin' lately Not a zen Asian lately Sick of philosophy I'm just, well, not me Life's so topsy A lesser me shot me Buried me Rott-ing Only me to blame Only me to tame Animal inside Driving me insane Always in-change Hobble to the beat The beat my blood I walk with bloody feet Travelin' Running from a zombie Unravelin' I feel it comin' on me It's happenin' Rightly or wrongly I better start livin' cuz the night is upon me Chorus: The night is coming Today is a memory The night is coming The day is ahead of me (x2) Verse two: Howl at the moon Lickin' blades See my dreams Drift away Life's just a mix of shades Light, dark I'm feelin' quite sick today Subterranean Depth in my cranium Slept in the shade again Tricked by the maze again Watch clouds depart I feel the heat in my heart As I reach in the dark There's a leak in the ark I didn't know a Life could fall lower Jump in the raft Dreams are the rower My energy's Tied to my memories Double-edge sword I feel it as it enters me I wanna live like I'm meant to be I wanna live for a century So passionate, so alive Til I die... Eventually Chorus x2
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Defeat-Id 02:56
VERSE ONE: I started this to write the best song ever Type that would allow me to quit rappin' forever escape to my island, my island's my mind & my mind is my client my client has the appetite of giants I feel it flow into me A symphony that simply Is sent to me and meant to be Yet another win for me It may look like a loss to you Yeah, I've had a loss or two But with this Kelsey Grammar you admit that I'm the boss of you Karate choppin through These obstacles Cuz there's a lot to do Listen man, it's not for you Til my body rots into The earth, it's my curse To pursue the possible Raised in a labyrinth For days I inhabit it Eat the fruit that Adam bit Suck the juices out of it Burn down mythologies That dry up & dissolve in me Cuz obviously, I'll probably Remain another oddity Honestly, he's A man on an oddysey VERSE TWO: Boom, bap bap Boom, bap bap My heart mirrors the snare That's the art of rap I've been a part of that Since it was an artifact Brought it back Cuz they killed it when they learned to market rap Rapped when I was a kid, man Rap is all I did, man Stack raps, in my backpack Lap tracks, man pack that Backs crack, when I rap fast Laughed at, I laughed back Sharp as a tack, attack that Purge with the words and blast that You can intuit, I'm in to it Rhymes colder than an inuit Say down to earth like a druid's lips I am not new to this Foolishness, fluid with Lines and rhymes that shine through the cluelessness Who is this? Goblin, help Somebody stop him Welp He's a problem Difficult to solve him Rubix cube, with the muse What the hell you call him? Torben Bernhard, I beg your pardon Rapped when I was a kid, man Rap is all I did, man Spittin' in my kitchen Gettin lifted with my kinsman Lips, tied at the hips, like Siamese twins & That's the beginnin' Of the end, the end is the beginnin' Back to my island My island's, my mind & My mind is an asylum A tyrant, defiant Drags me into corridors of metaphors Where I always write one more rhyme And Write one more time Or else...
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Verse One: Illusions, delusions Confusion I Choose when I'm winnin, or losin Perspective, directs it I'm Clued in Assumin' I let it Consume & Oasis In faces Of humans I knew then My chest is deep and cavernous I let these pests inhabit it Eat me from inside, they ravenous Attack the passages Of dreams And accidents Bash the passionate Bones in my back n' Smash it with' These acts of passiveness Imagine Rubbin' on a lamp like Aladdin Try to make wishes, but wishes won't happen Everytime I grab em, they slip through my fingers like sand in my hand and I'm left stranded Damn, this… Is not how I planned it But how I planned it, was rejected by this planet Man this, becomes too much to take Please open my eyes to see the fake Chorus: I'm seeing mirages See an oasis See my dreams Vanish right in front of me Verse two: Illusions, delusions A fusion Abusin My moods n' my movement The crudeness Life, when it loses its newness Looks like a noose Or a nuisance That loops its Way into my music These words that I transmit Are my only transit Move from point a to b Hope they understand this Talk a lot, but think alot Quick sand makes me sink in spot Fly...Icarus I'm...sick of this Ambition, crushing my shoulders Weighing me down Sit in a position Far from the crown Dream of foreign landscapes If a man is, a man makes A man gives, a man takes Reachin' deep In speech I leap into this sleep I seek in cold and heat I walk on broken feet Travelin' through life On the edge of the night Travelin, I fight On the edge of a knife Drift in the hands of my dreams, to bed Time sifts through the sands of Tibet Find my mind in the land by the edge Mapped and planned, climb deep in my head Bridge: Why do I? Why do I? Why do I? Chase mirages... Verse Three: These mirrors surround me They try to drown me Right where they found me But I am reboundin' Live life and soundin' Out to the Alps And about to be Houndin' Truth in the mountains Live on the ground But dreams of the clouds be Seepin' in my chest, while I lay awake Please open my eyes to see the fake Chorus: I'm seeing mirages See an oasis See my dreams Vanish right in front of me
7.
Verse one: Music's like a snake charmer I'm a man with no armor Dancing to the rhythm, and my shadow, looks like karma I can feel it chasin' me Feelin' like a race to me The feelin' is familiar, but this is a new phase for me Basically I used to get so baked they called me pastry Try to run away from problems, but they won't escape from me Cuz the prison is inside My paradigm And pair of thoughts Called a paradox And, apparently, I appear lost I occasionally veer off, the path As I steer off, the map Tryin' to clear off, my past Life flows in cycles Time is a lie and success is a psycho Rejoin the rhythm Rejoin the vision and Rejoin your wisdom There is no algorithm There's only decisions Improvised livin' in the palm of a prism Five blind men and an elephant, gropin' Can't tell what the hell it is, hopin' Life is more than what meets the hands To make God laugh, just go speak your plans Chorus: Lines and circles Circles and lines The lies might hurt you The blind lead the blind In time you will find That it time you will find The answers to your questions Are the questions in your mind To live is to die To live is to lose To live is to cry To live is to bruise To live is to work To live is to feel To live is to hurt To live it to heal Verse two: Writin' on paper The lines are blinds Looking out the window To signs, in my mind Cuz I'm... A book with a broken spine Read into everything Wish I could rewind I could've skimmed, but read every letter Drew out the lines, everything meta Chewed through the rhine Spit out the better Parts of my heart Tryin' to be clever The things that we sever May die away forever As we incorrectly measure Life in the fast lane Fight with my past brain Dream of my future But the present is my last aim The now is... hard to frame Right now is... hard to tame But now is all we have, so we try to maintain And kill lies that infect our mainframe Dying to breathe Dying to be Dying to dream Dying to see But livin' for me Repeat chorus
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Epilogue 02:23

about

We chose the title 'Fitzcarraldo,' based on Werner Herzog's movie of the same name, because we felt that its central metaphor of attempting to drag a boat over a mountain to build an opera house in the jungle was the perfect symbol for the inner anxieties of the creative life.

'Fitzcarraldo,' running slightly under 23 minutes, is a conceptual album intended to be listened to from beginning to end (at least once), as it traces the central challenge of trying to express the inexpressible or, in other words, live in the face of death.

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released May 20, 2013

Torben - Vocals
Kemble - Production

Made in The Sacred Grove.

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Weird Family Portland, Oregon

Weird Family is one part Torben (vocalist, Salt Lake City), one part Kemble (producer, Portland). Torben is a filmmaker. Kemble is a technologist.

Their debut EP, 'Fitzcarraldo," was released in 2013. It was inspired by Werner Herzog's film about a man attempting to build an opera house in the jungle.
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